Welcome to my blog! I’ve wanted to start a blog for years but never got around to it. I’ve umm and ahh’d about what to blog about – food? travel? These are my hobbies but they are also very common. Instead, I’ve decided to blog about nothing in particular, but also everything under the sun, from work to motherhood, technology to racism and just generally, my view of the world.
It’s probably relevant to introduce myself and provide some context to what the name of my website means. I’m a Chinese woman who grew up in Malaysia and spent more than 10 years studying and working in the UK. Growing up, I was never the girly type – I didn’t enjoy playing with dolls and wasn’t really into makeup and dressing up. In fact, in my early teens, I was often mistaken for a boy. So I didn’t have these fairytale ideas about falling madly in love, getting married and living happily ever after. I dated out of curiosity rather than love.
As a teenager, I was opinionated and felt strongly about issues like equality, human rights and giving back to the community. I also searched for the meaning of life by reading books about Buddhism, attending sessions on Christianity, etc. My ambition was to either be a journalist so that I can travel the world and write about things that mattered, or a doctor which seemed like a meaningful job and could allow me to work for charities in third world countries.
Fast forward to 20 years later and where do I find myself? I’ve ended up working in finance in pretty much the most materialistic city in the world – Hong Kong. I’m married with a young child and I’ve been struggling as a working mum. How did this happen? In essence, I was not brave enough to pursue my dreams. My parents are pretty conventional Chinese parents whose number one priority is for their children to have comfortable lives. This was also the environment that I grew up in. So I ended up giving in and was too scared to go down a path which could have meant struggling for years with low income and hard work.
A mixed bag – that’s how I would describe myself. I’m a closet hippie in a corporate world; I’m Chinese by ethnicity but have Western views; I’m against inequality and materialism but work in finance and live a comfortable life in Hong Kong; I love my daughter with all my heart but can’t stand to join the rat race to get her into elite schools and question why my husband gets to go partying while I stay at home to take care of her. The list goes on…. I always find myself in a dilemma and I’m hoping that this blog can be my outlet for expressing my views, so please bear with me. I would also love to hear your thoughts on the issues I write about – I’m always up for a good debate!